Its Been Awhile

Its been awhile since I've updated my blog. I think there was a big part of me that felt like "well why am I even doing this? Is anyone even going to read it..."Lets be honest, I am not a fashion expert, let alone an expert in anything. It's not like I'm given advice, or sharing hugely inspirational words of wisdom. But if I've learned anything this year it's the importance of being PRESENT. What is the point in being in this world if you don't voice your thoughts? Even if no one is going to listen, knowing that you put it out there, you let it off your chest makes a difference. Be present, have an impact on SOMEONE. Even if I think no one is listening, I'm sure someone will and someone will appreciate it.

Amongst all the craziness of this year, I must say, I am beginning to have a much better appreciation for the path I have chosen for my life. It's crazy how far I've come in a matter of a year. This time last year, I was so unhappy with my life. I felt like I had made all the WRONG decisions and none of the right ones. All I wanted to do was go home; back to the place that was familiar to me. Why did I give up all that I had, my friends, my job, my family, to come to California and start over? I mean yeah, I am in college now. It was my time to shine and grow and learn to be more independant. But, when things don't go as planned, you can't help but wonder, what was the point in it all? I think over this past year I've discovered more of who I am in this world and on this campus. I feel like I am finally in the postion to make an impact, to help CHANGE something. For this first time, I feel like my decisions are paying off. Sure, there have been plenty, and I mean plenty, of times where I've felt like everyone is just here to shit all over my parade, but FINALLY I feel like I am PRESENT! I have a PURPOSE, a reason for being on this path. I'm finding a new home, new friends, and most important, a new family. Become active in my college life for the first time has changed EVERYTHING. I think if I had sat back and let these 4 years go by without doing anything, I would have MAJORLY regretted it and what would I have learned? Nothing. I would have gone back home and been the same person I was before I left, stuck. Never have I been so sure of the fact that I am doing something right. I feel empowered, I feel like more of an adult, and most importantly, I feel PRESENT.

So if anyone does read this, I hope you learn something. Don't be IDLE. Take a stand for something, grow, change your life, learn independance and how to speak for your beliefs. Learn to be someone and do something. BE PRESENT.